Friday, December 8, 2017
Killer title gedik kan. Ahahhaa.
My teenagers soul use to dream of that. Not just a pilot but an artist, a doctor, an engineer, a prince owhh and an architect. Hahaha.(Angan-II tak nak kalah kan. Cry) Yeap, everyone has a dream when they are kids. Since primary i want to marry an architect one fine day. Because i love art, i mean the architecture itself. So impress. I've said to myself, i want to be an architect and if can't i want an architect husband. owhhh goshhhh *blushing*. But nan hadooooo. Kecik-II berangan bukan main tapi belajar pun kelaut,,mane nak jadi arkiteknye oiii.
After SPM, there's one newspaper write up about aircraft student. I kept that page and try to find the one that has been highlighted (Gile gigih stalker ni kan). Sampai last 2years keratan akhbar tu memang tersimpan elok dalam kotak surat-II aku tapi akhirnya bila mem besar mulakan operasi membersih bilik, habis semua khazanah-II yang ku simpan bertahun di buang.. Sedihhh..hahhaa. yelaa zaman sekarang semua teknologi mana ade dah surat menyurat ni. Tapiiiii kotak kenangan kau dan aku tak kan terpisah,,eh ternyanyi lak. Hiihihi. I mean the box which i kept all the letters, cards, notes and gift from NAH, not been thrown away. Apekah???
Ok back, kegigihan tu memang temukan aku dengan Friendster that guy. 2005/2006 ade MySpace and Friendster je. Facebook tak wujud lagi. Ngeee~ Then the friendship begin. Not so close it just like virtual friend like others. We message, change story. He is one of marching band which use to compete with my school before. Time sekolah kau gigih pergi tengok marching band competition yang biasenye buat kat sekolah kau tapi kau gigih tengok sekolah kau je.. Tak usha pun yang lain. kah.
Dan jadi cerita die ni kawan sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah & sekampung dengan Abg Adk (Someone time uitm yang dah macam abang aku lain mak ayah je. Tapi umur kami same.hahhaaha).
That pilot happily married with his childhood girlfriend and 3 cute kids now. Comey weyhhh anak kecik die. Haahaha. Time aku kenal die tu memang die dah steady dengan this gurl and tak goyah pun aku ngorat. hahahahahahahahaha. wekkk.
And now i'm curious, what i'am talking about right now?? *cry*. Hahaha. Ignore.
When you grow older, that kind of dreams not really important. I mean, in searching for partner of life. Be happy and make your life full of happiness.
So, is there a pilot wanna marry me? Ahahhahahahaha. Kidding. :p
.......Freezing so ayat pun main terjah je tulis. Sorry. ngee~
Tuesday, December 5, 2017
How can i move on while by just looking at your happily smiling photo, make my heart beat trillion than usual. It is wrong. Totally wrong but crush also have their expiry date right. *Smile*
---- Happy anniversary with bundle of happiness onward crush deary
Friday, November 17, 2017
Selamat hari Jumaat semua.
The sky so bright today but my heart not as bright as it. I tried to master the art of forgiveness this past few years, but i realize, its not easy for me. I had failed. Failed to master it. I try to think positively but the bad side interrupt me without fail. I lost. Lost in my hatred.
Seeing them living so happily give a thorn into my heart. I'm a bad person right. I try. Try to live happily with surround myself with good people. I realize too, good people doesn't lasting with me. Or maybe, i make a wrong choosing. Deep down in my heart, sometime i keep asking myself, why people keep leaving me?, why there's no one treasure me as i treasure them?, why people doesn't love me?, why i am always look bad in some people? why why why and why. Ya i know, don't question what have you gone through, bad or good, sweet or bitter. Allah know better. My connection with HIM surely not so strong yet. Allahu.
Please repent yourself Ryu. Ask forgiveness from HIM. Never ever stop make du'a.
Tinta hati ryu : Sakit itu mungkin salahmu, membiarkan diri terus dibayangi masa lalu
Friday, November 3, 2017
Yeap it's still in office hour on Friday evening. My day clock has change since i move to this kind of big city. Ahahaha. To be truth, sometime or most of it, i forgot the Friday. My weekend for 30 years is Friday and Saturday guys.. uhuk uhuk. Miss tho.
I just too sleepy right now and lazying while waiting the clock turn to 1730hrs. Owh enjoying my 3 in 1 Nescafe Latte Caramel too. Sedap weyhh. The smell of coffee,,, walllahh. Hahahahaha. Can i just gibberish here today? can eh can eh. Ngee~
I dream of my BFF. My high school bff.Missing her so much. Also missing to hang out, talking nonsense, teasing each other. I miss everything. I hope she missed me too. Huuhuhu.
I miss you too bae. Missing sipping the black coffee you made for me on morning while staring at the twin tower at your balcony. Cheesy huh. Hahahaha. Nak mereput bersama weyhh. I always pray that our friendship will longer until jannah. i don't want to loose any close friend anymore. It's kind of hurt been lonely sometime. Owh just remember that today, 2 years back, the first time we hang out and you even make me wanna cry. (I slept at the airport with my sister for the first time because save cost for hotel. hahaha. Crazy little thing called escapism. And you called ask us to take train to your house. We refuse cz don't want to troublesome others.) Thank you bae. Thank you. Thank you.
Tinta hati rerame : We may not met a good people everyday, but we can be that everyday to others. Smile.
Wednesday, November 1, 2017
Another 2months left for us to welcome a new year. Welcome a new age too. kah.
This month onward i hope my life have an improvement too. Maybe found yOu. hahhaha. Okay, left that cheesy thingy. I've been here at new place almost 4 months. Too fast the tick tock count. Even-tho, i still miss my old place. Especially people there. I miss my ex boss. hahhahahahaha.
Month of my #crushoninstagram. Hihiihihi. Sorry, i still can't move on yet but don't worry i know, there's an expiry date for crush too. Opps. You, just stay like you are, bring a butterfly into my day even without you noticed. Yeap, your simple little thingy its enough to make me smile the whole day. Thank you for that.
I welcome you with warmth heart. Because you're awesome.
Tinta hati rerame : Baeeee, i miss you. Hahahaha aku tau ko allergic benda2 cheesy camni tapi nak jugak cakap, aku rindu nak mereput dengan hang. *love*
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Bilamana saya melihat nama awak ade dalam list viewer,
sudah cukup untuk membuat hati saya berbunga riang,
di penuhi dengan rama-rama berterbangan indah.
Sudah saya pohon pada yang Esa,
jauhkan hati-II kita jika tiadanya halal untuk kita,
Mungkin saya masih ada kurangnya
Gembiranya awak, adalah kebahagiaan saya
Mungkin payah tapi saya orangnya yang berpijak nyata
Senyum lah dan tetaplah tersenyum dengan bahagia
Izinkan saya untuk terus senyum sampai langit
dengan hanya sedikit tingkah awak.
Suatu masa nanti pasti saya ketemu yang abadi.
Saturday, June 10, 2017
Hari ini seperti tahun sebelum-II nya,
Masih berkeadaan sama
cuma bezanya pada angka
Tapi itu tak mungkin ada picingnya.
Hari ini masih seperti sebelumnya,
Sendiri membilang waktu,
Merenung bintang bekerlipan
mungkin ubahnya hanya pada rezeki.
Alhamdulillah untuk kamu,
Syukur untuk kamu,
Campak jauh sisi negatif sekeliling
kerana aku tau kuatnya seorang kamu
Tabahnya seorang Fatihah.
Seiring tahun berubah,
hati manusia juga berubah.
Teruslah melangkah walau mereka menjauhi saat jatuh mu,
Kerna bersamamu tika jatuh bangun pasti setia seiring sejalan.
Hargai dan tetaplah bersyukur.
Selamat hari lahir Siti Fatihah.
Your inner strenght
Tinta hati ryu : The best thing will happen to those who patiently wait. Terima kasih for the gift. Double for now. "Wink"