tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54298807615677738812024-03-13T12:05:42.060+08:00Tinta hati rerama:it's a story of ryuyellowmellow.. it's a writing from the heart.. it's a story of butterfly:Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.comBlogger80125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-13785416542512319502018-11-07T16:52:00.001+08:002018-11-07T16:52:25.763+08:00Surat kuning untuk N<br />
N,<br />
Padamu aku labuhkan tirai rasa<br />
yang entah bila datang bertamu<br />
mulanya secebis menjadi gebu<br />
<br />
N,<br />
Ku garap angan yang mungkin ku gapai<br />
mungkin juga di bawa angin lalu<br />
namun, tidak pernah luput namamu<br />
di dalam setiap titis doa pada Ilahi<br />
<br />
N,<br />
Kau dan aku bezanya langit dan bumi<br />
tapi di mata-Nya, kita tetap sama<br />
tidak bezanya pada pangkat atau keturunan<br />
maka, cintaku tetap padamu<br />
<br />
N,<br />
Izinkan aku menjadi suri di hatimu<br />
ibu kepada anak-II kita<br />
saling temani berdua hingga ke akhirnya<br />
<br />
N,<br />
Belahan hatiku padamu<br />
sejak dulu tak pernah kembali<br />
kerana aku sayang kamu<br />
selamanya,<br />
<br />
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your mystery sender,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
F</div>
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071118</div>
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1644hrs</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-66402896137998144922018-06-19T00:08:00.001+08:002018-06-19T00:08:26.957+08:00Surat Kuning untuk Ryu<br />
<br />
32,<br />
I pray for your healthier<br />
I pray for your blessing ages<br />
I pray for your happiness<br />
I pray for your brave heart<br />
I pray for your continuous positiveness<br />
<br />
32,<br />
I know it is not easy for you in everything<br />
But heyy,, you manage to up until now<br />
The storm, the wind, the rain, the lightning<br />
You had gone through them wisely<br />
<br />
32,<br />
I know you are alone in this world<br />
But you have still have HIM, always<br />
Never left you behind<br />
It's all on you to find HIM no matter<br />
in what situation is<br />
<br />
32,<br />
I hope you will get what you want soon,<br />
The good one, the wish, the dream,<br />
InsyaAllah.<br />
To the beautiful Ryu,<br />
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 💛💛💛<br />
<br />
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Love,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
Your inner strenght</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
2254hrs</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
1oo618</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
escaperoom</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-23060608673460793072018-05-24T11:14:00.001+08:002018-05-24T11:14:14.777+08:00Selamat hari lahir Ayah<br />
Delay post..<br />
<br />
16 May 2018.<br />
<br />
Ayah,<br />
If you are still here with us, today will be your 69 years birthday. But since 5 years back, me, abang and sisters could not wish directly to you, could not celebrate together. You've left us. On your 63rd birthday, 2012, i gave a called from work, wish you a happy birthday and you just laugh. That moment remain freshly in my mind until today. Everything still fresh.<br />
<br />
Ayah,<br />
There's a lot thing i wanna share. My career, my struggles, my heart broken, my dreams. There's a lot changes in our family too. Everything not really smooth sailing once you're gone. But still, we are doing good. Former, i thought abang not so sensitive but he did wish and miss you a lot Ayah. A lot. He was shed a tear on the last moment before we buried you forever. And his simple status today really make me cry.<br />
<br />
Ayah,<br />
I can't write long as now i already shed a tear too. We miss you, a lot. Kak Ngoh sayang Ayah.<br />
Happy birthday Ayah. Al-Fatihah~<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : A good-bye is never painful unless you're never going to say HELLO again</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-11678227346667088492018-05-03T17:09:00.002+08:002018-05-03T17:09:37.317+08:0003 May 2018<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t<br />
<br />
13 Days to Ramadhan. It means, 13 days of searching for me. Deep down, i really hope my 13 days before Ramadhan will give me a rainbow. A yellow one most welcome first. Anything can happen right. I wish today, if Allah willing, i will have what i want tomorrow. Vice versa, that wish may be keep first and be granted to me some other time. The perfect time.<br />
<br />
I had a mixed feeling this almost half a year. I can be so happy in the morning and so gloomy in the evening. I will show the smile the whole days and also feel "i need my space". It's kind of restless life of me i think. Sometimes i will question myself, WHAT. Soooo middle age crisis.<br />
<br />
But, i can move on from you dear butterfly. It seem i reach the expiry date of crush. Ahahaha. I fall again. Dear heart, why must this happen? Don't you pity me?. Ahhh. Sorry Rerama, i only have you to told all of this. *wink*. Ya Allah, kau jatuh kan lah hati ku ini pada si dia yang selayaknya.<br />
<br />
Awak,<br />
When i realize that you already attract me just the way you are, my sleeping-kind-of-artsy-finger-kononnye has awaken. Hahahaha. Disclaimer, i'm not so talented in drawing. A simple one can do. But seriously i cannot draw human. =P<br />
I try to draw you (probably not your face) copying your photo. Opps sorry i 'stole' it. ngee~<br />
I draw your hobby. Ahhh why. Why i fall to you like this.<br />
When you will noticed me? eh! Hahaha.<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati rerama : Hati seringkali menuju persimpangan. Tapi tidak juga ke kiri mahupun ke kanan. Jadinya mahunya apa kamu si hati?</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-8063181256327035202018-04-23T16:55:00.001+08:002018-04-23T16:55:02.887+08:00Koala Bambam is TWO<br />
<br />
Crazy little thing called homesick.<br />
<br />
Last Friday night, me and Nain drove back to our "heart" and came back to this light town last night. Tired. Exhausted but satisfied. Weekend drive about 6 hours + 6 hours. Mirah already fly 2 days early. It's turn to be a small birthday celebration to the one and only cucu (for now) together with our Abang.<br />
<br />
So, yeahhh our king of heart turn 2 last 13 April. He's a big boy now and i'm kind of miss the koala bambam version. Emirrrrrr, che ngoh sayang emir bambam. Sob sob. Time flies so fast. Lucky he still can get along with me. Hahaha berani yer Mir tanak dengan che ngoh. He can talk now even not so fluent and so much phrase and owhh maiiii you are so adorable Emir. A clever boy. (Just annoyed when you're too focus with gadget when che ngoh face time).<br />
<br />
Thank you Emir for being a good boy and che ngoh hope you will be a better person later. Be kind, responsible, lovable and most important, don't break gurls heart ok. Piat telinga nanti. hahaha.<br />
<br />
Happy Birthday Raja Emir Shaqeef Aryan a.k.a my forever koala bambam. Love you. ❤️<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati rerame :Lihat bintang di langit bawa aku mengingati mu nun jauh di utara. </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-4713762343324223632018-04-06T16:48:00.003+08:002018-04-06T16:48:52.805+08:00Your gift<br />
<br />
"Hey, don't steel his food"<br />
<br />
Dear Awak,<br />
<br />
You make my day so beautiful with just by heard your voice. Yeap, your-not-a-second-voice. I love to hear that. Love to see how you so generous with the cats. I keep praying that one find day you will realize my existence. Smile. Wanna play hide and seek ya. Hahaha. Kidding.<br />
<br />
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Me,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-48137169534384792262018-03-22T17:10:00.001+08:002018-03-22T17:10:32.204+08:00Goodbye<br />
<br />
Seriously, i really hate to say goodbye.<br />
I was come back to my home town last weekend but not really enjoy it as i'm busying try to settle the life long matter. (Could not be done..sob sob). Drive back with my cousin around 2130hrs for the first time. Yeap,, first time drive long journey at night. Arrived home at 0330hrs. Collapse until 'kesiangan'. I can't open up my eyes when ibu wake me up. We have a wedding bekwoh to attend and help. My cousin got hitched. Going there around afternoon and back home to go to another wedding and bring Ibu 'memborong kain baju raya'.<br />
<br />
The next day again could not attend the 'mengantor menantu' as i stuck at UTC. Huwaaaa. Sorry ayoh de. Whole day drive, visit Along at hospital and i climb up the stair to level 7. Level 7 ok. Sebab sejenis cuak nak naik lif hospital. hahahhaa. Semoga Along beroleh kesihatan yang baik. Turun naik tangga tu tak terdaya nak main mata dengan doktor-II dah. Opps. Hahahaa.<br />
<br />
Then the day has come, the day that i need to say goodbye. Leaving home, left Ibu alone with Bihah, i cry. Ermm Nain got the job in KL too, before this she's there, accompany ibu, bring ibu everywhere but now we had to left her. Sebab sebak and sejenis cengeng, hanya mampu salam cium tangan je, tak terkata nak titip pesan dekat Bihah. Drama air mata dalam kereta. (Burn the flight ticket..sob sob)<br />
<br />
Nak balik duduk Terengganu pleaseeeeeeeeeee.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-84902756710745912372018-02-26T17:19:00.000+08:002018-02-26T17:19:03.844+08:00A confession to a guy<br />
Today, I take a move to make a confession to someone that i just adore. Erkk lalang kan. Gapoever. Hahaha. Yeap it take so much courage back then to have that strength because i confess to "bukan biasa-biasa" person. I'm scared, thinking too much like "that i will be humiliate?" "Did he will show it to his close cousin?". Owhh seriously. I'm not afraid of rejection. It's better i try and being reject rather than sit and wait.<br />
<br />
Actually i don't know when his personality attract me. But seeing his face give me calmness. I feel breathing. I try to make me exist around him, virtually but it seem he doesn't noticed or just ignore me. So, i try this last solution, may be. Deep in my tiny heart, i pray that he at least wanna be my friend. Its okay for that. To be truth, i'am afraid to put a high expectation. You know who you are right. What kind of you compare to him. Its a far far far away. He's a prince. Hahhahaa. Kidding.<br />
<br />
Heyyaaaa trying is no harm right.<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati Ryu : Sang Enggang mungkin terbangnya tinggi dari sang pipit tapi tiada salahnya enggang mahu beriringan sesama pipit. *Smile*</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-42131103959410895122018-02-20T16:02:00.000+08:002018-02-20T16:02:03.469+08:00Pelangi untuk Ara..my emo reading<br />
Saat hati goyah dengan rasa sedih, serius membaca novel itu sangat lah disaster. Dan sesungguhnya aku sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa mood hati sangat swing lately. Forever alone sangat gamaknya. huewwww.<br />
<br />
Since semalam memang glenyar pi sambung baca novel Pelangi Untuk Ara, here some words yang tertaip dekat twitter. Owhh ni belum habiskan lagi laa.. Kerja oii cari penyakit nak berjaga ke pagi semata nak habiskan novel tu. Hahaha.<br />
<br />
Ara,<br />
Punya Huzair yang pinjamkan bahu untuk air mata, pinjamkan telinga untuk setiap keluh kesah, adakan masa untuk seorang Ara. Kesetiaan persahabatan.<br />
<br />
Ara,<br />
Ada seorang Dee yang sentiasa memberi semangat, nasihat dan juga menarik kearah kebaikan dengan cara yang halus. Seorang Dee yang tidak pernah menghukum mahupun judgemental. Kesetiaan persahabatan.<br />
<br />
Ara,<br />
Miliki seorang Eiyad yang sangat mengambil berat as a-brother-from-another-FaMa, care with love, strict but in a good way. Love-hate-relationship.<br />
<br />
Pelangi Untuk Ara,<br />
Ara boleh luahkan tangisan without try to hold it like me (for sure laa kan) with doing a bungee jumping, ditemani seorang sahabat yang worth to keep. A friends that know how to cherish you.<br />
<br />
And<br />
Pelangi untuk Fatihah?<br />
Allah gerakkan hati Awak untuk view my story, that exactly akan buatkan saya tersenyum serta merta setiap kali saya gloomy. Terima kasih. InsyaAllah akan ada jalur pelangi onwards dari segala sudut untuk aku di hari-II mendatang. Amin<br />
<br />
......<br />
<br />
Disaster right?<br />
Mane nak jumpa seorang Huzair untuk teman pergi bungee jumping ni? Huzair yang nak dengar segala mak nenek yang terpendam? Huzair yang tak kisah dah tak ketawa bila nak menangis? Hurmmm.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-68217849735262894902018-01-23T15:27:00.002+08:002018-01-23T15:27:34.737+08:00Smile<br />
<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t<br />
<br />
In the time i question myself just like previous, i googled up randomly and found a beautiful writing by Yasmin Mogahed. Lucky me. It give me wide perspective. Make my thinking clear. Alhamdullilah ya Tuhan.<br />
<br />
Guys,<br />
Here the link <a href="http://www.yasminmogahed.com/2014/02/12/the-search-for-love/">The Search for Love</a><br />
I hope you all will inspire too when read the article, all of Yasmin articles exactly. :)<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-72701336300760577672018-01-22T10:01:00.002+08:002018-01-22T10:01:23.367+08:00210118<br />
<br />
I ask myself, what did i want in this life actually. What did i search. A husband? a house? a luxury life?. What Fatihah. What do you really want. Its look like my heart keep something that i can't told anyone. Not a single one. I don't know how to express my feeling. A true feeling not a fake one. I don't know how to tell the world. That deep inside there's something untold even to myself. At this age, i feel insecure, i feel lonely, i feel undesirable, i feel unwanted.<br />
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Random thought</div>
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210118</div>
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2324hrs</div>
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Ryuescape</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-72605325152935158812018-01-04T20:03:00.000+08:002018-01-04T20:03:59.610+08:00Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
Istighfar<br />
<br />
Saat hati terusik dengan rasa sakit, ku cuba lazimi bibir ini dengan zikirmu ya Allah. Untuk aku yang kerdil lagi berdosa, kadang ini bukan mudah. Aku berdosa.<br />
<br />
Saat hati sedih mencuba untuk menangis, ku cuba untuk tetap berpaling padamu ya Allah. Aku rapuh namun aku pasak kan di minda, aku bukan seorang. Aku bukan sendiri. Biar sekeliling ku menjauh, aku tahu, aku ada mu ya Allah.<br />
<br />
Ku mohon, jauhi aku dari terpesong menjauh dari mengingati mu ya Allah.<br />
<br />
Saat ku kirim doa pada sekalian hamba mu yang pergi ke tanah haram, mungkin aku khilaf. Mungkin aku lupa. Mungkin aku riak. Bertanya aku pada hati saat seseorang mencuit “ tawakkal kah aku saat ku kirim doa itu?”.<br />
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<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : Kadang hatiku ingin hidupnya seperti novel cinta.</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-35626564037849729422018-01-03T12:17:00.002+08:002018-01-03T12:17:33.018+08:002018<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t 2018.<br />
<br />
Day 3 out of 365 days of 2018. Sayonara 2017. A year that gave me mix feeling. Half of good thing. Syukur alhamdulillah for everything. For the breath, for the health, for the rezeki, for the happiness, for the gloomy, every single thing. Alhamdulillah.<br />
<br />
Terima kasih Allah. Good thing happen to those who patiently wait. Not every thing because i know, there's a much that still on hold. Ya, HE know what the best for me to receive time by times.<br />
<br />
I hope this year will be my year. InsyaAllah.<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : Untuk Awak yang dalam mengerjakan umrah sekarang, doakan untuk saya berjodoh dengan awak. ngee~ </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-12538137368313701652017-12-29T17:23:00.002+08:002017-12-29T17:23:39.649+08:00Happy Birthday Cik Farah11 December 2017<br />
<br />
hieeeeeeeee,,<br />
<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t.<br />
<br />
Ok, since its your birthday, so here the essay of cheesy word for you bae...<br />
<br />
Hahahahaha delay posting again.. (padahal takde time nak tulis sepenuhnye.)<br />
<br />
Farah adiba, an engineer from Red team which used to be my team too 2years back. We are not in the same department and exactly, i don't know where she belong. ahahaha. Ye bae, aku tatau pun kau PSL mane weyhh. At first i taught she under Ilen. Ok, she ask me to book her stay at Kemaman for a month. She will undergo her kind of training something like that for each PSL there. Why me?. Allah nak hadiahkan aku seorang kawan yang baik. Then we just contact thru email or IM. Tak kenal muka pun oii.<br />
<br />
My PSL is not her first to visit. Farah is Farah. Easy person yang sangat senang blend into anyone. A nice person yang tak pandang siapa kau, ape jawatan kau. Someone yang tak pernah nak show off even she deserved. A humble person. Owhh goshhh... i love you bae.<br />
<br />
Aku tak ingat PSL aku yang ke berapa die visit but from that we grow our friendship. Aku memule jenis segan. Sebabnye, there no one engineer which i handle yang buat aku jadi kawan. Yang ajak lepak minum kopi. They mostly find me for "Siti, hotel mana? sapa pick up?".. ngee~ Then she go to Houston for a year maybe,,aku ada laa contact, which birthday ke ape ke. Gitttew.<br />
<br />
On my hardest time, she keep support me, emotionally. She's there. Tak pernah hilang. I cry few times for her kindness. When my close friends leave me, she's there. Tak pernah jemu.<br />
Semasa teman dia check up mata dekat Prof Muhaya, i google about Prof, suami, dan anak-II pun doktor. Then aku cakap kat Farah.<br />
<br />
M : Macam family hang laa kan, semua doc. Hang je cendeng engine<br />
F : Haa laa. Tapi kalu aku jadi doc jugak, tak laa jupe hang, jadi kawan hang<br />
*cry big times*<br />
<br />
Last June, habis je interview, she's the first aku text untuk beritahu the good news. So, bile dah stay di hutan konkrit ni, rajin laa jugak kami mereput bersama. Ahahaha. Terima kasih tak terhingga bae. But now she's been demob to Africa. Red team please bring back my bae soon. Huhuhuhu.<br />
<br />
Dear Farah,<br />
I owe you a lot. Thank you for being one of my good friend. Thank you for everything. Thank you. Don't worry, i will choose you to be my dayang, stay beside me the whole day of solemnization, everything on me. Itu kalu ke Brunei ke kita. Kah kah kah. hahaha. Love you bae. ❤<br />
Happy birthday.<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : Rindu kawan? Text. Tapi bila reply emoticon roll eyes, tanpa any word, then senyap ke sudah, that's it. Move. </span><br />
<br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-14576556775446691032017-12-08T17:24:00.002+08:002017-12-08T17:24:49.112+08:00I wanna marry a pilot<br />
<br />
Killer title gedik kan. Ahahhaa.<br />
<br />
My teenagers soul use to dream of that. Not just a pilot but an artist, a doctor, an engineer, a prince owhh and an architect. Hahaha.(Angan-II tak nak kalah kan. Cry) Yeap, everyone has a dream when they are kids. Since primary i want to marry an architect one fine day. Because i love art, i mean the architecture itself. So impress. I've said to myself, i want to be an architect and if can't i want an architect husband. owhhh goshhhh *blushing*. But nan hadooooo. Kecik-II berangan bukan main tapi belajar pun kelaut,,mane nak jadi arkiteknye oiii.<br />
<br />
After SPM, there's one newspaper write up about aircraft student. I kept that page and try to find the one that has been highlighted (Gile gigih stalker ni kan). Sampai last 2years keratan akhbar tu memang tersimpan elok dalam kotak surat-II aku tapi akhirnya bila mem besar mulakan operasi membersih bilik, habis semua khazanah-II yang ku simpan bertahun di buang.. Sedihhh..hahhaa. yelaa zaman sekarang semua teknologi mana ade dah surat menyurat ni. Tapiiiii kotak kenangan kau dan aku tak kan terpisah,,eh ternyanyi lak. Hiihihi. I mean the box which i kept all the letters, cards, notes and gift from NAH, not been thrown away. Apekah???<br />
<br />
Ok back, kegigihan tu memang temukan aku dengan Friendster that guy. 2005/2006 ade MySpace and Friendster je. Facebook tak wujud lagi. Ngeee~ Then the friendship begin. Not so close it just like virtual friend like others. We message, change story. He is one of marching band which use to compete with my school before. Time sekolah kau gigih pergi tengok marching band competition yang biasenye buat kat sekolah kau tapi kau gigih tengok sekolah kau je.. Tak usha pun yang lain. kah.<br />
Dan jadi cerita die ni kawan sekolah rendah, sekolah menengah & sekampung dengan Abg Adk (Someone time uitm yang dah macam abang aku lain mak ayah je. Tapi umur kami same.hahhaaha).<br />
<br />
That pilot happily married with his childhood girlfriend and 3 cute kids now. Comey weyhhh anak kecik die. Haahaha. Time aku kenal die tu memang die dah steady dengan this gurl and tak goyah pun aku ngorat. hahahahahahahahaha. wekkk.<br />
<br />
And now i'm curious, what i'am talking about right now?? *cry*. Hahaha. Ignore.<br />
<br />
When you grow older, that kind of dreams not really important. I mean, in searching for partner of life. Be happy and make your life full of happiness.<br />
<br />
So, is there a pilot wanna marry me? Ahahhahahahaha. Kidding. :p<br />
<br />
.......Freezing so ayat pun main terjah je tulis. Sorry. ngee~<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-8623497108716250822017-12-05T09:43:00.001+08:002017-12-05T09:43:14.028+08:00Crush deary<br />
<br />
<br />
Crush deary,<br />
<br />
<br />
How can i move on while by just looking at your happily smiling photo, make my heart beat trillion than usual. It is wrong. Totally wrong but crush also have their expiry date right. *Smile*<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: right;">
Moon</div>
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<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
---- Happy anniversary with bundle of happiness onward crush deary </div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-7852229300307798512017-11-17T11:50:00.000+08:002017-11-17T11:50:05.344+08:00Thorn in my heart<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t<br />
<br />
Selamat hari Jumaat semua.<br />
<br />
The sky so bright today but my heart not as bright as it. I tried to master the art of forgiveness this past few years, but i realize, its not easy for me. I had failed. Failed to master it. I try to think positively but the bad side interrupt me without fail. I lost. Lost in my hatred.<br />
<br />
Seeing them living so happily give a thorn into my heart. I'm a bad person right. I try. Try to live happily with surround myself with good people. I realize too, good people doesn't lasting with me. Or maybe, i make a wrong choosing. Deep down in my heart, sometime i keep asking myself, why people keep leaving me?, why there's no one treasure me as i treasure them?, why people doesn't love me?, why i am always look bad in some people? why why why and why. Ya i know, don't question what have you gone through, bad or good, sweet or bitter. Allah know better. My connection with HIM surely not so strong yet. Allahu.<br />
<br />
Please repent yourself Ryu. Ask forgiveness from HIM. Never ever stop make du'a.<br />
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<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : Sakit itu mungkin salahmu, membiarkan diri terus dibayangi masa lalu </span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-75283380272250660152017-11-03T16:32:00.004+08:002017-11-03T16:32:49.843+08:00Gibberish note<br />
Assalamualaikum w.b.t<br />
<br />
Yeap it's still in office hour on Friday evening. My day clock has change since i move to this kind of big city. Ahahaha. To be truth, sometime or most of it, i forgot the Friday. My weekend for 30 years is Friday and Saturday guys.. uhuk uhuk. Miss tho.<br />
<br />
I just too sleepy right now and lazying while waiting the clock turn to 1730hrs. Owh enjoying my 3 in 1 Nescafe Latte Caramel too. Sedap weyhh. The smell of coffee,,, walllahh. Hahahahaha. Can i just gibberish here today? can eh can eh. Ngee~<br />
<br />
I dream of my BFF. My high school bff.Missing her so much. Also missing to hang out, talking nonsense, teasing each other. I miss everything. I hope she missed me too. Huuhuhu.<br />
<br />
I miss you too bae. Missing sipping the black coffee you made for me on morning while staring at the twin tower at your balcony. Cheesy huh. Hahahaha. Nak mereput bersama weyhh. I always pray that our friendship will longer until jannah. i don't want to loose any close friend anymore. It's kind of hurt been lonely sometime. Owh just remember that today, 2 years back, the first time we hang out and you even make me wanna cry. (I slept at the airport with my sister for the first time because save cost for hotel. hahaha. Crazy little thing called escapism. And you called ask us to take train to your house. We refuse cz don't want to troublesome others.) Thank you bae. Thank you. Thank you.<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati rerame : We may not met a good people everyday, but we can be that everyday to others. Smile.</span><br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-80386901355327150592017-11-01T17:28:00.001+08:002017-11-01T17:28:11.866+08:00Hello November<br />
<br />
Hi November,<br />
<br />
Another 2months left for us to welcome a new year. Welcome a new age too. kah.<br />
This month onward i hope my life have an improvement too. Maybe found yOu. hahhaha. Okay, left that cheesy thingy. I've been here at new place almost 4 months. Too fast the tick tock count. Even-tho, i still miss my old place. Especially people there. I miss my ex boss. hahhahahahaha.<br />
<br />
November,<br />
<br />
Month of my #crushoninstagram. Hihiihihi. Sorry, i still can't move on yet but don't worry i know, there's an expiry date for crush too. Opps. You, just stay like you are, bring a butterfly into my day even without you noticed. Yeap, your simple little thingy its enough to make me smile the whole day. Thank you for that.<br />
<br />
November,<br />
<br />
I welcome you with warmth heart. Because you're awesome.<br />
<br />
<br />
<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati rerame : Baeeee, i miss you. Hahahaha aku tau ko allergic benda2 cheesy camni tapi nak jugak cakap, aku rindu nak mereput dengan hang. *love*</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-66696476987268792732017-10-17T17:27:00.002+08:002017-10-17T17:28:36.823+08:00#ryuwrites ed.8<br />
<br />
Awak,<br />
<br />
Bilamana saya melihat nama awak ade dalam list viewer,<br />
sudah cukup untuk membuat hati saya berbunga riang,<br />
di penuhi dengan rama-rama berterbangan indah.<br />
<br />
Awak,<br />
<br />
Sudah saya pohon pada yang Esa,<br />
jauhkan hati-II kita jika tiadanya halal untuk kita,<br />
Mungkin saya masih ada kurangnya<br />
<br />
<br />
Awak,<br />
<br />
Gembiranya awak, adalah kebahagiaan saya<br />
Mungkin payah tapi saya orangnya yang berpijak nyata<br />
Senyum lah dan tetaplah tersenyum dengan bahagia<br />
<br />
Awak,<br />
<br />
Izinkan saya untuk terus senyum sampai langit<br />
dengan hanya sedikit tingkah awak.<br />
Suatu masa nanti pasti saya ketemu yang abadi.<br />
<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: right;">
1729hrs</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
office desk</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
Ryu place</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
PJ</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-81450627249506902622017-06-10T01:23:00.002+08:002017-06-10T01:23:20.831+08:00Surat kuning untuk Ryu<br />
Dear Ryu,<br />
<br />
Hari ini seperti tahun sebelum-II nya,<br />
Masih berkeadaan sama<br />
cuma bezanya pada angka<br />
Tapi itu tak mungkin ada picingnya.<br />
Hari ini masih seperti sebelumnya,<br />
Sendiri membilang waktu,<br />
Merenung bintang bekerlipan<br />
mungkin ubahnya hanya pada rezeki.<br />
Alhamdulillah untuk kamu,<br />
Syukur untuk kamu,<br />
Campak jauh sisi negatif sekeliling<br />
kerana aku tau kuatnya seorang kamu<br />
Tabahnya seorang Fatihah.<br />
Seiring tahun berubah,<br />
hati manusia juga berubah.<br />
Teruslah melangkah walau mereka menjauhi saat jatuh mu,<br />
Kerna bersamamu tika jatuh bangun pasti setia seiring sejalan.<br />
Hargai dan tetaplah bersyukur.<br />
<br />
Selamat hari lahir Siti Fatihah.<br />
<br />
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Sayang,</div>
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Your inner strenght</div>
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<br /></div>
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<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : The best thing will happen to those who patiently wait. Terima kasih for the gift. Double for now. "Wink"</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-44235517681229176162017-05-28T23:06:00.001+08:002017-05-28T23:06:24.168+08:00Ramadan<br />
Selamat menyambut bulan ramadan<br />
untuk awak<br />
awak<br />
awak<br />
awak<br />
awak<br />
awak<br />
dan awak awak awak jugak<br />
<br />
😊<br />
<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-14559530262437404702017-04-12T23:14:00.001+08:002017-04-12T23:14:30.248+08:00Mudah<br />
<br />
Menangis<br />
Sangat mudah<br />
Amat mudah<br />
<br />
Namun<br />
punyai seseorang yang bertabah untuk memujuk, mendengar dan memahami bukan lah sesuatu yang mudah. Mungkin mudah bagi kamu tapi tidak aku.<br />
<br />
Hanya DIA yang maha mengetahui segala yang tersurat mahupun tersirat.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-205472935592553272017-04-10T01:47:00.000+08:002017-04-10T01:47:11.618+08:00#ryuwrites ed.7<br />
<br />
Cemburuku pada mereka<br />
Tersentak pantas beristiqhfar<br />
Jangan larut menheret duka<br />
Gali lah sinar bahagia<br />
Lemah, longlai, alpa<br />
Heret kembali ke dunia nyata<br />
Pandang pada rahmat-Nya<br />
Telusuri hikmah-Nya<br />
Tika jalan terpesong<br />
Ayuh! bangun bangkit mencari kiblat<br />
Tunduk kudus setiap dosa<br />
Pasak hati mencari cahaya<br />
Biar kelam di belakangmu<br />
Jangan dipikul bersama selamanya<br />
Bersainglah kudus zikir istighfar<br />
Kita hamba serba kurang<br />
Aku insan khilafnya beribu<br />
<br />
<div style="text-align: right;">
040417</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
0101hrs</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
Ryuroom</div>
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<span style="color: yellow;">ڧتيح</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5429880761567773881.post-47485110181751072652017-03-19T00:12:00.001+08:002017-03-19T00:40:47.637+08:00EMWMAFAssalamualaikum w.b.t<br />
<br />
Hurmmm since the movie still downloading and i'am kind of short idea to write, thinking to write down about people in my world. Maybe its simple,,,erkkk or not.. Hahahhaa.<br />
<br />
Ok laa.. i've told before that i wanna wrote about EMWMAF,, so here we go.. fasten your seat belt please. gittew.<br />
<br />
It's kind of nice coincidence or maybe its fate. Aku start kenal die dari IG 3years back, how..aku sendiri pun lupa dari siapa bermulanya. But its because of al haram photo. Gambar die di tanah suci berlatar belakang kan kaabah. (kot..aku dah lupa gambar mane tapi gambar di Mekah). Apa yang attract me, the date of picture was taken. Its the same time with me been there too. (Sat aku nak pi scroll IG die sat nak tengok.) Hiihihihi.<br />
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I left comment at some of the pic,,about 138weeks. (kegigihan aku scroll ig..:) tapi tatau mane hilang komen kami. kah kah kah. Dari situ kami soal jawab sikit and guess what,,, We actually under the same travel agency, same flight, same date, same itinerary, just different bus, differ hotel at Mekah, sebab die amek pakej mahal. heeeee. Hahahaha. keberangkalian untuk kami bertemu tu ada tapi mungkin tak perasan. Die bus no 4, aku no 5 dan kami 6 bus semuanya bergerak sekali je bila pergi ziarah sekitar Madinah. Sweet kan Allah.<br />
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Dari komen, kami chat dekat ig msg then we change phone number. Normal laa tu kan. Owh ya, die ni way younger than me. And we become friend after the broke up with my past. Ye ye "the past" left me once i getting back from umrah. So die ni takde kaitan or penyebab broke up. My past just not that kind of loyal. Back to EMWMAF, we stop chat until July 21, out of blue he whatsapp me. Surprising laa jugak. Morning time iolls tengah bersiap nak pergi kerja. Kalut merah-II pipi jugak laa sikit. Hahahahaha. Kidding. Then, the friendship begin. Actually, he share his problem. A love thing. Ya ya ya since high school, aku ni muka pendengar masalah cinta orang je. But guys, don't make naughty conclusion ya..there's no lovey dovey thingy between us. Mungkin ade laa tergelecoh sikit,, fragile kan that time. auchhh.<br />
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He just finish his degree from Birmingham Uni. but already got a job after Aidilfitri 2014. We kind of close but i knew too what type is he. Hahaha. Dik, lama sikit makan garam eh. opps. Everything just find, and guess what, his ex stalked me. Kelakar. But in a good way laa so now i've been friend with his ex too. Not so close but a friend laa. Akak-akak sangat iolls rasa. hahahhaa.<br />
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So the rest is history. hahaha aci camtu.. We still befriend but just less contact than before. We still talk, whatsapp & comment cuma tulaa, malas sikit sekarang. Mwahahaha. Akak dah tua dik. Kah!Owh our first meet up at Sany Kuew tiow nearer Istana Budaya. That time i and used to be bff wanna escape to Melaka. Ermmm that's our friendship. Ok dah nak pi mengimbau masa lalu sat..Korang laa ni, tak pasal-II aku scroll whatsapp awal kami. Hahahaha. Ampun uolls.<br />
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psst...kelakar oiiii bila baca kembali conversation kami. Sorry u, but thank you so much because being one of my friend, support me when i'm down, put up when i'm fragile. Thanks ye u. Bila nak claim coupon? Hahahaha.<br />
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<span style="color: yellow;">Tinta hati ryu : Allah plan always beautiful. From stranger become friend and close one become stranger. Appreciated. Not everything will last forever.</span><br />
<span style="color: yellow;"><br /></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02435184209647803021noreply@blogger.com0